This is me. Take it or leave it.

I’m in too deep.

Here lately I’ve been thinking about getting Brett a lil something for Christmas. I just asked his best friend if I should and he straight up said no. So now I’m laying here over thinking fucking everything. Like why is it such a bad idea? It’s not like I was getting it expecting something in return. I really really like Brett and it scares me. I know I still talk to other guys and I don’t act like it but I really like him so much. I don’t want to tell him because I’m afraid it will ruin everything. I hate not knowing what to do. :(

It really sucks to feel alone.

Sexual frustration…oops.